Distraction. Discouragement. Disappointment. I wish I had more stamina when it comes to praying--hard!--for Tue's salvation. I have lost ... well, not hope but urgency. I want to know everything about his journey. I dare not ask, however, for fear of tipping my hand (i.e., knowledge).
So, Lord, how do people pray consistently if ignorantly? Is there anything I need to know about his questions and his quest? What stopped the plan for proposing, if indeed it is not really stopped but only suspended? How, Lord, can I help?
I do know one answer to that question. I need to PRAY. And I have been distracted, discouraged, and disappointed. This seems so clearly a tactic of the enemy, and I have fallen for it. Forgive me, please. Since I am helpless to overcome my lazy, sinful nature, please do something to me to spur me on.
I love You, Jesus. I want Tue to love You, too. I know he loves Julie; I want Tue to get the beautiful example of the groom and his bride that You set with Your church. I recognize that this is Your work alone and that You allow us to partner with You in it, even though we can do nothing to accomplish it. Please do that work! In Jesus's name, Amen.
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